Stupid Shit!

Okay.. don't take this note seriously. I just wrote it when I  was in anger..

Things I hate when : 

* someone says "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do in that long time ?

*someone asks "Has the car come yet?" when I am waiting for the car. If the car came, would I be standing here ???

*people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it ?

*people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid Rp 40000 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!!

well, it's just a bullshit! don't take it seriously.. bye pals! hihi 

xoxoxoxoxo

Life Begins at 18th

  Damn ,I hate my birthday! Call me insane , call me crazy but I always hate my birthday. There's no reason why I just don't like it!

But this year , it's a different story. I'm afraid , it was extremely fun! haha. Okay let me tell you why..

Someone crazy-hilarious-funny-yet-humble , call mister prisoner , had merged with my brotha and sista to set a surprise for me. I wish I knew but I didn't! My brotha and sista were totally busy buzzing with their games as usual. It was 11.30 pm at that time , I felt kinda drowsy-yet-sleepy so I went to my room.

Meanwhile , someone knocked at my room's door during 12.00 am. It must be my brotha , I wondered. When I opened the door , tadaaa! Oh my god ,it's shocking me!! I saw mister prisoner ,my brotha and sista with a big-yummy-creamy chocolate cake and candles on top of it. Huwaaa.. I really panic at that time since I was only wearing pyjamas with chicken-pup hair style and no make up! Geezz..

I didn't expect to get any gifts since I hate my birthday. But this time ,I got more than what I've never expected before. A surprise!!

It's not about the present they gave to me but it's about the moment. The moment which could stay in my heart.I think even the diamonds or gems couldn't be more precious than that. My life begins at 18th. Everything's new for me.

Thank you my brothaa , sista and mister H (mister p's friend). I really appreciate it!

Big special thanks to : mister prisoner. Thank you for the incredible amount of support , affection , friendship and solidarity. p.s : I love your pink t-shirt! haha.

Happy May Day , ppl! May God bless yeaa..

muachhmuachh  

*forgive my messy hair. huhu :( *

 

*me and my brothaaa*

 

Brand New Day

Dear my lamest blog ,
sorry dorry strawberry for not updating you since I was totally busy these days :(

But don't worry b'coz I've come back here with thousand of stories you don't wanna miss ! Okay let's start..

First , I've graduated from high school. Yihaa! It means I'm totally free-like-a-bird. I decide what I want and what I like.

Second , I hope I can go to university as soon as possible since I really can't stand staying all day long at home without any idea what to study for. Oh yaaa rite now I'm searching for job vacancies too. Interesting to hire me ?? Call me! haha

Third , believe it or not , I'm learning to cook some foodstuff. haha. Okay.. Okay.. You're allowed to laugh , but it's TRUE! I like to make experiments to mix this stuff with those in order to create enviable foods. So far the poor victims of my enviable foods are my brotha and sista. They told me that my thunderbolt-fried-rice is really suitable for people who don't pup for one week. Oh geez!

Fourth , I've met many interesting people these days such as gays and lesbians. Well , just kidding! haha. I mean many people keep wondering why am I still single until this last second. Hmm.. well I wanna make this statement : I AM SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE! Isn't it cool ? haha. It's just the matter of status. Okay I'm single but it doesn't mean that I'm living alone and feel lonely. Hell NO! I'm happy.. totally happy!

But right now , I have someone who stand besides me. Someone who always laugh when I'm mumbling stupid jokes. Someone who always listen to my ugly-pitchy voice and someone who doesn't judge me when I'm doing pathetic.

Well I think it's too fast to conclude that I'm falling in love. I mean let me go with the flow. hihi.

So , for the past and someone in Dortmund pls don't disturb me!

Well , that's it. Happy fucking May , ppl! Love you. muach muach

xoxoxoxo

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My body isn't perfect.
But I walk with confidence.
Some nights I would rather be myself than out partying.
I cry over the smallest things.
There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs.
Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are ok when they're not.
I'm not ugly, but I'm not beautiful.
My real life isn't as good as in pictures
There are some days when I cry myself to sleep.
I'm imperfect but i am perfectly me.

I Miss You So Damn Much

Hello world..
Hope you're listening , there's someone I've been missing..
I think that he could be , the better half of me
He is in his own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying..

So I'll beg you come home , 'coz I've been waiting you for so long..
And right now there's a war between the vanities
All the sons , all the daughters
just dreaming out loud..

when I'm slipping in doubt and in fear
remind me your still here
That my heart is connected
in ways you won't let disappear

I miss you Dad..

Prapat , I'm cominggggg

Tomorrow will be the greatest day in my life. I'm going to Prapat for the first time in my life. hell yeahhhhhh..

I've just finished packing my stuff. I feel so exhausted.

Oh ya , all of my friends keep arguing about mister K. Hmm.. he always makes everyone curious. hehehe. I wish I could tell them the truth. Well , perhaps I will. Everyone always wants to hear the truth.. until it hurts.

Happy beautiful day ppl *loveyou *muachh-muachh

****

*just finished my packing*



*my lips are sealed*

F*CK !!

Sometimes it's better to be alone, no one can hurt you in any way. I'm really tired of being judge for who I'm not , stab for what I don't and gossip for those shits !!

Sometimes people are just fake as their D&G's underwear.. Is it hard to say : hey dude , I hate you so much so go F*CK urself.. rather than : hey dude , you're my best friend forever.. I love you so muach-muach.. but the truth is they hate him so damn much !

I prefer to be told with the first one , even it's hurting me , but at least I know the truth. Geez.. Nothing really makes sense in this world..

*****

Song of the day : Glenn Fredly - Cuma Kamu

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Kau bisikkan tulusnya cinta
Kepadaku

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