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My body isn't perfect.
But I walk with confidence.
Some nights I would rather be myself than out partying.
I cry over the smallest things.
There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs.
Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are ok when they're not.
I'm not ugly, but I'm not beautiful.
My real life isn't as good as in pictures
There are some days when I cry myself to sleep.
I'm imperfect but i am perfectly me.

I Miss You So Damn Much

Hello world..
Hope you're listening , there's someone I've been missing..
I think that he could be , the better half of me
He is in his own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying..

So I'll beg you come home , 'coz I've been waiting you for so long..
And right now there's a war between the vanities
All the sons , all the daughters
just dreaming out loud..

when I'm slipping in doubt and in fear
remind me your still here
That my heart is connected
in ways you won't let disappear

I miss you Dad..

Prapat , I'm cominggggg

Tomorrow will be the greatest day in my life. I'm going to Prapat for the first time in my life. hell yeahhhhhh..

I've just finished packing my stuff. I feel so exhausted.

Oh ya , all of my friends keep arguing about mister K. Hmm.. he always makes everyone curious. hehehe. I wish I could tell them the truth. Well , perhaps I will. Everyone always wants to hear the truth.. until it hurts.

Happy beautiful day ppl *loveyou *muachh-muachh

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*just finished my packing*



*my lips are sealed*

F*CK !!

Sometimes it's better to be alone, no one can hurt you in any way. I'm really tired of being judge for who I'm not , stab for what I don't and gossip for those shits !!

Sometimes people are just fake as their D&G's underwear.. Is it hard to say : hey dude , I hate you so much so go F*CK urself.. rather than : hey dude , you're my best friend forever.. I love you so muach-muach.. but the truth is they hate him so damn much !

I prefer to be told with the first one , even it's hurting me , but at least I know the truth. Geez.. Nothing really makes sense in this world..

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Song of the day : Glenn Fredly - Cuma Kamu

Saat mata-mata tertuju tajam padaku
Hanya kau yang selalu tersenyum
Saat kata-kata menghujam dalam jantungku
Hanya kau yang menghibur aku

Saat mereka menghina aku
Kau genggam tanganku
Kau bisikkan tulusnya cinta
Kepadaku

Cuma kamu yang mengerti
Apa isi hati yang hancur selama ini
Cuma kamu yang pahami
Apa adanya diriku selama ini

Cuma kamu..

The Shape of Your Looking Glass

You show me the world

by the shape of your looking glass

You make me easy to see

the colours in this world

Yellow , pink , green , blue

You color my day

The more I feel the more I see

the way you make me want to live

You left my words dry on my mouth

so much on my head ,

but nothing on my tongue

As much as it may seem , sounds and feels..

I wanna reach the world with you..

*****

This poem is dedicated for someone who had shown me the meaning of this life..

Brand New Day

Today's mood : Happy-shopping-day-with-mom :D

Yesterday someone sent a picture of me. It's candid.. Awwww.. I love it ! Thank youuuu..

Song of the day : Brand New Day - Joshua Radin

Some kind of magic
Happens late at night
When the moon smiles down on me
And bathes me in it’s light

I fell asleep beneath you
In the tall blades of grass
When I woke the world was new
I never had to ask

( reff ) It’s a brand new day
The sun is shinning
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I’ll be ok

Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last
Most stories have a hero who finds
You make your past your past
Ya you make your past your past

(reff )

This cycle never ends
Gotta fall in order to mend

And it’s a brand new day
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
Inn such a long long time
I know
I’ll be ok

Nothing Makes Sense in This Damn World

"...and she will fool everyone with her smile and pretend laugh and pretend that everything is ok, even though its not ok. It was never ok for her. And when someone asks her "How are you?" and she replies "I'm fine" she knows she's lying because she's not fine.. And she longs for that someone to look into her eyes and tell her to tell him the truth because he can tell that she's not ok...And she knows that he'll be her soulmate and that she'll want to be with him forever just because he care.. "

Someone sent me this note yesterday at 3 am , I don't why but I guess there's something he wanna tell me..